Time for me....

The girls are at their Granny and Granda's for the night, hubbie is at work for another couple of hours so it's just me for a while.

Bubble bath is ready, kindle is turned on, I'm ready for a couple hours peace and quiet thank you very much!

I'm having a pity party...

...anyone want to join me?

My chest is pretty tight but my inhalers aren't easing it any.

My voice is croaky and rough and is on the verge of disappearing.

I'm dizzy and floaty feeling.

I'm not interested in eating but I'm getting hungry.

I haven't seen my girls all day because I've been upstairs in bed and they've been out visiting their Granny in Belfast and now they're having their nap on the sofa - I don't really want to go near them incase I pass something along but I could really do with a hug.

To sum up:

I'M MISERABLE!!!!!!!!

Being terrorised by a 4 year old...

...and she's not even family!

She lives in a couple of houses down and I've let her come in a couple of times to play with the girls, as long as her Mummy agrees 1st but today she's being a little nightmare!

To start with I had to chase her twice when our girls were going down for their nap because every time they heard her they woke up again and then after their naps she let herself into the house whilst I was in the bath and hubbie was on the phone in the kitchen and her Mummy didn't even know where she was.

Now, since 7pm I've chased her a few times, I've shouted through the window for her to stay away from the window because I was trying to get the girls into their jammies and start their wind down but she keeps coming over regardless of what I say to her.

There's just no telling her!

Her Mummy says to just tell her to go away if she's annoying me but it's not working and I don't want to have to get any sterner with her than I already have because she's only 4 and by the looks of it she's an only child so is just wanting the company but she's starting to bug the life out of me when I'm trying to keep our girls on schedule and routine is seriously important for our twins, if we veer off course then it's a nightmare trying to get back on.

Oh what to do!!

Reasons to be Cheerful - 19.04.2012

Thank you as always to Mummy From the Heart.
I'm not sure what to be thankful for this week. Hubbie lost his job, he's pretty down about it and I'm starting to feel the strain trying to keep moral up for both of us.
So in light of all the depressing stuff that's happening in our household this week I think my reasons to be cheerful should be completely frivolous and just for a giggle to put a smile on my face, and hopefully a smile on yours as you read it.
1.Housework is getting done!!!With Hubbie out of work it means our house will be spotless (well as spotless as our monsters will allow anyway!). He's already gutted the hot press, he's washed every dish in the house, the living room floor has been cleared, today he's finishing the ironing and on Sunday, weather depending, he's going to be doing some gardening for me.Now if only I could get him to cook every meal I'd be a lady of leisure about the house.
2.We have a kingsize duvet for our double bed.For anyone who shares a bed with a quilt hogger you'll understand the bliss having a larger quilt for your bed than is necessarily required.
3.Stickers!Stickers are the currency of choice in our house and if it wasn't for these delightful sticky pictures I'd never get a minutes peace, especially on the days our girls don't nap. Our girls go crazy for them and I'm not sure what we would've done if we hadn't discovered them months ago.Thank you sticker makers wherever you are, you've helped preserve my sanity (well for a little while longer anyway).

Disney Channel - good or bad?

Special Agent Osu never listens and actually endangers himself during training - should we trust him to teach our children how to do things?

Mickey Mouse says 'Uh-huh, yeah' - do I really want my girls to grow up thinking that's the proper way to speak?

Curious George always gets into trouble and never gets reprimanded - is he teaching children it's ok to be naughty because you'll get away with it?

I know they're only cartoons and a bit of fun but the more I see of the Disney Channel the more I'm loving Cbeebies (nothing to do with the fact I've a bit of a crush on Mr Bloom and Justin Fletcher, it's all for the good of our twins, of course :D ).

Reasons to be cheerful

Thank you Mummy from the Heart.
1.The bin men arrived!! This in itself isn't all that thrilling but knowing the nappies my monsters have produced the past fortnight I'm so thankful the bin men weren't late or off because it was getting rough out the back!
Roll on potty training is all I can say, it'll mean fewer nappies in the bin!
2.I didn't have an asthma attack. This time last week I couldn't breath and was halfway to having an asthma attack but thank goodness for my inhalers and both my Mother-in-Law and my Mummy for taking the girls for me so I could look after myself instead of chasing about after the monsters.
3.Speaking of the monsters, they are one of my reasons to be cheerful. They're healthy, happy and in the mood to mess about just like they should be. Stuff any mess they make, it can be brushed up, as long as they're having fun that's all that matters.

I look forward to reading everyone elses reasons to be cheerful

Guilt

The Committee Member for our area put the latest Prayer Diary and Communion Token through our door last night and as I sit here reading through it I'm filled with guilt that I haven't been to Church in quite a while.

Everyone says it's understandable what with our girls not sleeping through the night and most nights not going to bed until at least 11pm but still I should've been making more of an effort.

I try to be a good Christian and I know that I'm not but I also know that as long as God knows I'm trying that's all that matters, what others think of me isn't important.

5 Reasons I Know I'm a .........

Mother of Twins

Thanks to Kate Takes 5 for this week's suggestion.

1.

My handbag now resembles a small suitcase when I'm not taking the changing bag out with us, it must be big enough to fit a day's worth of nappies, baby wipes, at least two cuddly toys, and goodness knows how many stickers and note pads to keep the girls entertained.

2.

I can make tea whilst carrying both of my girls, okay well not so much now that they're two, but I was able to make a full meal, complete with a mug of tea each when our girls were smaller without needing to put them down in their bouncers.

3.

I have to drive a Vectra just to fit their pram into the car. I had to give up my beloved Corsa when our girls were a couple of months old because their pram was just far too big to fit into the car.

4.

People give me more pitying looks than they would a Mummy of a single child. The oh dear how on earth do you cope conversation is heard at least once a day when we're out and about and the amount of silly questions I get asked is beyond the joke, but I've learnt to smile, nod and agree and then walk away before they hear me laughing at them.

5.

I have 5 scars to prove it! Not only do I have a caesarean scar to show for carrying around my bundles of joy I also have 4 scars from needing to have my gall bladder out, according to the surgeon carrying twins gave me gall stones because of the build up of calcium floating around my body and I ended up having to have it removed as the stones just wouldn't stop getting stuck. Funny how no-one warned me about this during my pregnancy but after it they all talked about it like I should've been aware it was a possibility. 

Little about me

My twin 8 month old daughters are my life, wherever I go they go with me mostly because during the day I don't have anyone to leave them with but I couldn't imagine going anywhere anymore without them. My maternity leave finishes next month and I'll be returning to work part-time, not through choice but because of the problems the building industry are experiencing right now which is the area I work in.

Though I'm not happy about my hours being cut especially after I've worked for the same person for 7 years I'm happy that my girls and me will still get to spend a whole lot of time together and that I will still have a major role in their developing years rather than letting a nursery worker, someone I don't know and someone who is just doing their job get to see how they will change and maybe hear their first proper words or their first proper steps.

I've been married for three years, sometimes it feels like forever and sometimes it feels like hardly anytime at all. My husband works every hour he can, as a result he doesn't get to spend all that much time with his daughters at night but it's something that must be done for a while yet because trying to keep twins fed and watered and clothed is quite expensive. He's the love of my life and if it wasn't for him doing the best he can we would have to rely a lot more on family which is something we try to avoid.

Our life isn't idyllic or easy-going but life rarely is and we cope with the many problems the best we can as we meet them.